*** In Russian ***



Красивой и интерсной женщине издалека


Расстояние, которое молит о наличии
Расстояние, которое призывает к близости
Расстояние, которое требует внимания
Расстояние, которое взывает к тебе ...


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Присутствие расстояния, которое никоим образом не мешает моей памяти
Памяти, большей чем расстояние, что важно, чтобы представлять тебя;
Близость которая помогает оставаться и жить
Чтобы жить теми моментами, которые позволяли быть так близко;
Внимание к каждому необходимому слову, чувствам и эмоциям близким тебе
Для тебя я чувствую необходимость уделять внимание;
Для тебя я готов тратить много времени, чтобы стать важной частью твоей жизни и истории сегодня
На сегодняшний день мои шансы узнать тебя разоблачают меня перед тобой.
Терпение, что я ищу узнавая тебя
Понимание что я призываю, узнавая тебя
Тревожные времена знать, что ты
Находишься вдали от меня сейчас

Сообщения на память о тебе,
Красивая и интересная женщина издалека.

Андрей Мартинс 26 09 09



*** In English ***



In a beautiful and interesting far girl-woman

The distance that pleads for the presence
The distance that calls for close
The distance that calls for attention
The distance that cries out for you ...

Call for knowing
Call for understanding
Call for worry
Call for it to be ...

The presence in the distance which in no way hinders my memory
The memory of times the distance that it is important to imagine his presence;
Proximity which is understandable to want to stand by and live
To live the moments that are allowed to live that close;
By attention to every need, word, feeling and emotion coming from you
For you the truth I need in a sense to give attention;
For you long for me to become an important part of your life and history today
For today in my chances for you to know me exposing myself for you.

Patience that I seek to know you
Understanding what I call you to know
Worrying at times to know you
Being away for now to meet you

The distance calls for the memory of you,
A beautiful and interesting far-woman.

Andre Martins 26.09.09



*** In Portuguese ***



A uma linda e interessante distante mulher-menina



A distância que clama pela presença
A distância que clama por proximidade
A distância que clama por atenção
A distância que clama por ti...

Clamar por se conhecer
Clamar por se entender
Clamar por se preocupar
Clamar por se estar...

Pela presença ao longe que em nada dificulta minha lembrança
Pela lembrança de momentos ao longe que tornam-se importantes para imaginar sua presença;
Por proximidade que se compreende em querer estar ao lado e viver
Por viver os momentos que são permitidos para que viva essa proximidade;
Por atenção a cada necessidade, palavra, sensação e emoção vinda de ti
Por ti espero a verdade na necessidade de uma sensação ao te dar atenção;
Por ti almejo transformar-me em uma importante parte de sua vida e história hoje
Por hoje nas minhas possibilidades para que me conheças me exponho por ti.

Paciência que eu busco clamar ao te conhecer
Entender o que eu clamo ao te conhecer
Preocupar nos momentos ao te conhecer
Estar longe por agora ao te conhecer

A distância clama pela lembrança de você,
Uma linda e interessante distante mulher-menina.

André Martins 26.09.09

Sometimes... in the SUMMERTIME

Sometimes... in the SUMMERTIME
I WALK THE LINE,
Trying to GET WHAT YOU GIVE,
But WAITING FOR YOU
ONLY THE WIND makes myself
A NIGHTMARE TO REMEMBER
That 2 MINUTES TO MIDNIGHT
In the 12 BAR BLUES(LIVE)
Drinking A PINGA DO DUENDE MALUCO
With NO BRAVERY
I MISS YOUR LOVE.

After all YOU LL UNDERSTAND
I CAN’T TURN YOU LOOSE.

While DYING TO LIVE
Nobody can GIVE ME UP AGAIN
ONLY YOU, MY GIRL
Can put me OUT OF CONTROL
‘cause IF THIS IS LOVE
WHAT’S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT,
THIS IS THE LAST TIME that I want
To suffer.

As well
In the SIGNS OF LIFE,
I ‘m all the time and the single moment
Trying to not HURT MY BABY
My ANGEL OF MERCY

But
IF I CAN’T FIND MY BABY
Wandering by the UNKNOWN ROAD(PIANO SOLO)
Just with my DESIRE
In my heart with NO OTHER LOVE
And in my memory just OLD FRIENDS
I became JUST ANOTHER VICTIM
Like ANGELS AND DEVILS

WHAT D I SAY(RARE)?
DON’T LEAVE ME!
My dear IRISH ANGEL
Would I say that IF WE TRY
WHAT CAN YOU TELL ME?
SAY YOU WILL...

I NEEDED YOU TONIGHT
‘Cause I CRY, CRY, CRY
With that singular GOODBYE LETTER(1) of yours
Where there’s NO EASY WAY DOWN

I HURT myself
AFTER THE RAIN
YOUNGER THAN TODAY
And my love FEELS LIKE RAIN
Wondering...
DREAM ON, DREAMER
CREEP...

AGMA Weeks from Sep 07 to Sep 21

Fall...

Again I fell in,

As much as I wanted to stand out

Fall ...

Where else could I find this time?
Otherwise the lowest feeling in my being,
For one more day to try to forget,
A feeling that I got to have for you seeing...

Fall ...
Thinking that I might one day be happy,
In the sensations coming from your happiness and smile,
Attention that one day I came to have,
From a love that did not suffer
From a distance that made me believe ... something happens
What I do believe and not happens to
Fall ...

Did not want to feel again ...
Did not want to fall again ...
Did not want to suffer again ...
Suffer what the past has made to me ...
I wanted to feel something new ...
Wish I had a new breath ...
That the breath for finding you...
I know it was my dream ...
But when I try to find you in someplace else or in a waterfall...
Without fear of meeting myself...what...
Fall ...

I wish my time was another ...
For their time finding my time,
A simple way to be able one day
For Talking
And all the problems
Troubleshoot ...
But today for not talking...
Fall ...

Fell on me ...
That one more day I'm suffering ...
Suffering not see you ...
Suffering not hear you ...
Suffering not want you ...
Do not want you to me, what you want to be for me...
Not being able to know
As a day crave
And just with that sadness in my heart
So tight that not more so desire
Suffering
Not knowing what I can...
Fell on me ...

We are free from each other
In different moments of a live
We are sad to know not know
As much as we know
We are different for wanting to ...
Within the space we want to have without knowing ...
Different in the opinion
Perceivers of suffering ...
Understanders without knowing, without knowing, without answering
Fall ...

Fall...

Because my words so they want...

My attitudes have done so...

My intentions so challenging...

My wish is that succumbed

For lack of you

For lack of words

For lack of sleep in my insomnia

For lack of dream

For lack of fighting for this dream

For lack of air that compels me to feel

The wounded heart in tears

It is the sense in saying that...

Fall ...

And again
From past to present
The future without being in the present
From the present not different
Fell without having you in my life
The gift of having you happy
Caring, respectful and smiling ...
A gift from God
An Invaluable virtue to be
A friendship without words to live on
A confidant no doubt to hear
A partner without tears to feel for
A woman so beautiful that one day I want to know ...
Try to know ...
Try not suffer ...
To not drop me ...
But ...
Fall ...

Again ...
Fall ...
... Suffered suffering crying
Tearless
Cold
Soulless
Lost
In solitude
To forget what a day you could and I could feel ...
Without leaving and for feeling to say goodbye
From Your heart ...
My heart stopped smiling ...

Fall ...

AGMA 12.09.09 04:45 a.m.

Soundtrack Listening:

Jonny Lang – Red Light
Junior Wells – Help Me
Muddy Waters & Johnny Winter – 19 years old
Muddy Waters – I’m a Howlin’ Wolf
Stevie Ray Vaughan – Life Without You
Mark Hummel & Kim Wilson & Charlie Musselwhite – Blowout Part 2(Harmonica)
Stevie Ray Vaughan & Jimmie Vaughan – Pipeline
Jonny Lang – Angel

Bom dia a todos!

Hoje estou com fôlego novo, não é por estar postando essa letra de música que me encontre mal, apenas me encontro em dilemas e situações que me forçam a mudar minhas atitudes, meu ser e algumas coisas que são importantes para mim hoje.

Espero que reflitam sobre a música, que possam aproveitar e refletir sobre suas vidas e que possam entender que as mudanças são benéficas em nossas vidas, por mais que já tenhamos sofrido com o passado, e nos limitamos ao presente, temos que ter abertura para o nosso futuro, ao conhecermos novos fatos e pessoas que fazem parte importante em nossas vidas, e que passam a participar mais ativamente de nós.

Hound Dog Taylor
It Hurts Me Too

You said you was hurtin'
Said you almost lost your mind
Well, the man you love
He hurts you all the time

When things go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

You love him more
When you should love him less
Why I lick up behind him
And take his mess

When things go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

You love another man
I love only you
But you follow behind him
Stick to him like glue

When things go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

When things go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

He's gonna leave you
Well, you've gotta put him down
No, oh, I won't stand
To see you bein' pushed around

Baby, when things go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

Yeah, when thing go wrong
Go wrong with you, it hurts me too

(Fonte: http://vagalume.uol.com.br/hound-dog-taylor/it-hurts-me-too.html)


Tenham uma ótima sexta-feira a todos! Os que estão mais próximos e quem está tão longe e ao mesmo tempo perto em minhas lembranças e meu carinho.

AGMA 11.09.09

Even from a distance, to know you ...

I believe that the way we talk to each other decrease the distance between us.

I imagine you by my side, telling me how was your day, your life, your feelings...

As I see you by my side, listening me carefully, each adventure of mine, each desire of mine, each feeling of mine...

And the time never goes by, or better it goes by, and that's when we see that... we can’t see us anymore...

So my heart gets sad, for the distance from you...

And my will to know you, again is interrupted without my wanting...

In this moment I didn’t want more the distance, I’d wanted you...

Because even from a distance, to know you...

Do me well, give me happiness,

To know you, I feel a part of you with me...

A part of you inside me, and I want more... each moment

And I try to forget the time again... for it to pass by.... and bring me you again near to me... even from the distance...

To know you... know you better... My Pretty Dear...

AGMA 10.09.09

What do you think I am? A clown? Or a man with feelings?

A man with feelings, and do you know why?

Because...

I can’t open my eyes.

I don’t want to open my eyes anymore.

I don’t want open my eyes anymore to get in to my heart’s nightmare.

If today I desire not to wake up.

I can’t stop to think about the words and actions that prevent me to wake up.

I would like to live in a dream that would not became in a nightmare to my eyes.

In the right moment that i try to open my eyes and I have the impression that I can’t have thou near me, to see all of the fullness of your beauty... I fall, I fall in the end of an abyss, lonely abyss... of my heart...

The nightmare becomes to be very often in my life, and doesn’t matter if I’m awake or dreaming, ‘cause what makes me fell alive is you.

At the same words were said or were not said, in the same that the lived moments or not for now,and in the same that there’s a distance created between us and your will to let me out of your life with your kindness, your attention and likely your love... you’ll really keep to be the most important person in my life...

If in this days I need to be so far from you to understand your desire to be alone far away from me, and this will can be too far for my heart,

if this will to be far one day convert your will to be by my side and I’ll be too close to you, even with my broken heart, with my infinit soul’s pain, with the perturbated and incomprehensible friendship, I’ll have to learn that this moment in my live that your desire to can be part of my life to the right time...

I will be yours... and You will be mine...

I would want that the time was another, another time to know you, I would want that was another vision that you would have of me, I would want to be another man to have your attention, in the same time that I would want to be another man to have you my dear thru my hands... so in my last dream I would want to be another man, and not me, to get out of your mind the vision you have of me, for you can get to know me with will, to desire for, live for, learn for, to understand , the love for...

I would like to understand if someday someone had hurted you, if someone let you scars in your heart that could be able to prevent anyone to be with you... get close to you...

I would like to understand, why can't a gorgeous woman have a simple man in her life and heart that just like her as a princess... like a queen and would do the possible and the impossible in his life to be by her side? Would be the beauty? Would be the wealth? Would be the poverty? Would be the health? Would be the illness? Would be the hapiness? Would be the sadness? Or would be the fact that there’s a fear to have someone by her side? I would like too much to understand this...

Because today I can’t open my eyes without you by my side, without listen your voice, without feel your skin, without know you deep inside, without to say to you that I desire to be with you by your side...

Today I can’t open my eyes.

Today I don’t want to open my eyes anymore.

Today I don’t want open my eyes anymore to get in to my heart’s nightmare.

And if today I desire not to wake up.

I will not wake up for anyone, just for one, just for you, the princess of my heart, soul and life...

So... as you are too far from me now...

Now I can’t open my eyes...

AGMA 08.09.09

Time Machine

I wanted to know the Time Machine to go back and resolve things that were not resolved, to be who I am by no me state for those not declared myself and be who I am.

Wish I had a Time Machine to be able to remove words that I said, delete words I wrote and acts committed.

I wish I could do a Time Machine can help me understand people better, not to get lost in the know, not to make mistakes the same mistakes by trusting, not to suffer again and do not need.

I wanted to be in a Time Machine, in order to go back in time, able to discern situations, demonstrate who I am, and become important to who I want as well.

So that people could really understand me and give importance to what I feel, that they should read what I write and give importance to what I write, do not put aside my feelings but that the real value I think and feel that they could not help side my true value, not ignore who I am or what I can be, or how to express myself, that could be real and true to me ...

Time Machine, something that does not exist, something that does not help me, something that does not matter to me, something that bothers me.

I wish I could come back hours ago, a week ago, a month ago, and finally two months ago in order to start something do not know if that will continue, but it is very important and I do not want to lose.

A person who is an important part in my life, moments that were important in my life, situations that are important in my life.

Time Machine, where is that?

Pretty and very important person in my life, how are you?

AGMA 07.09.09

Another day of ... Changes ...

Before it was so easy,

The feedback was immediate,

The desire was continuous,

Reciprocity was the same ...

Changes ...

Then it was difficult

Without the return so long,

Without the continuity of desire,

The same order with the reciprocity ...

Changes ... Nothing has changed?

Changes ...

A caring,

A vision Pretty vision of You,

View of the Pretty To do ...

Changes ...

From an almost affection,

In a vision,

Distorted view coming from you,

Being sightless Pretty ...

Changes ...

Endearments,

Carts treated by words,

Smile without explanation,

Affection loving you ...

Changes ...

Not so loving words anymore

Carts for words without treatment

Explanations of smile that comes

You no longer withoyt the loving care ...

Changes ...

The loving embrace,

The look dainty and loving,

Engaging and captivating, Deliciously ‘n beautiful Voice to hear ...

Changes ...

Without the loving embrace

The loving looks without the dainty loving

Captivated without involvement,

Pretty voice one day delightful to hear ...

Changes ...

Ever treated with sincerity,

Too Kind so that you can love,

Welcome to the prosperous future In love,

in complicity, attention and interest ...

Changes ...

From the sincerity in treatment,

To be able to love without being kind,

The more prosperous future without welcome,

Without the complicity of interest, attention and affection ...

Changes ...

Necessary changes

For the hopeless and the unbreakable will to Know,

Necessary changes To get closer to you with affection and feel The desire to love,

fallen in love, stay and be ... alive ... for you ...

Changes ...

Changes unnecessary

From an indecipherable way to know the inevitable will,

Unnecessary changes

To move more than you and no longer feel affection,

The desire to stay and live without being in love not to love ... for you ...

Changes ...

In a conversation that no longer existed,

A sentence no longer imposed,

From a promise of no change,

From a beautiful feeling alive to continue In the know through the origin of everything,

No loss, no damage,

With affection again to be the focus of mutual understanding ...

Changes ...

In an ever-existing conversation,

Of words recalled in the sentence imposed,

The change of promises of nothing Live without the beautiful and solid feeling,

Where all came about through the will and can not know,

With the loss, with damage,

Again, without a care comprising not more attention to each other ...

Changes ...

Why changes?

If I have never failed to be sincere in my convictions,

Actually creating a feeling of admiration and affection,

Why? Changes are not so welcome to my being?

Changes in attitudes arising from a neglect of that feeling,

Prohibiting the desire of knowing, the will to stand together in unity of smiles,

Bordering, putting questions without answers,

The times that meet and discuss the past,

The present and future of one, two, one is only ...

Single In the Perfect God’s Divine Creation,

In captivating need to see, feel, touch,

Affectionate touch ...

Why change?

If I banish myself then closer,

What I find repellent,

Changes its, to me, what I am, When I have available intelligence, affection and attention ...

Why these changes? Change’s why?

Darling it's over,

The formal name that takes shape in the body through your voice,

The seriousness of avoiding the confrontation of ideas and thoughts ...

Why such crucial and serious changes?

Fear? Fear of change? Afraid to feel? Fear of change in the own space?

God, what I did to be so slow the changes of bad finish,

For leaving so, I can feel your love again?

Changes ...

No more changes,

No more changes without you,

What was the changes

What was not the changes

I just feel that one day I could feel,

One day I know,

The beautiful picture of you Pretty,

Pretty and eternal image of you,

The most perfect and sweet creation made by God for my need to know,

The most beautiful of all ... Changes ...

By AGMA 05.09.09

Soundtrack of Text Creation:
Eric Clapton & Jimmie Vaughan_Kind Of Blues_2003_1-10 It Hurts Me Too
John Hiatt - Hurt My Baby
School Of Rock - No Vacancy - Heal me, I'm Heartsick
Joe Cocker - Have A Little Faith In Me

Dreams

What I can say about dreams. Most of the people in the world are capable to dream, to think that are dreaming awake and sometimes to dream to forget the troubles.

Well, If we try to explain the main story or singular of the meaning of dream, we can find something like this:

“Dreams are succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during rapid eye movement sleep.[1] The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history. The scientific study of dreams is known as oneirology.”
(Sourde: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dream)

In my case, I can describe that the dream may be one dispositive that we can use to growing up.

Why?

We all need a time to feel and to rest our mind, when we came back home, or when we try to do some kind of work that let us very sad or too much worried about.

The dream can help us to find the answer.

If you hadn’t done what you'd needed in your work or any place, you could get home, sad, tired and with a sensation of loser, or in the other words, failured worker.

When you are in your dreams, all things come true, you can find the exception of the day. In the real plan of living you have that real pressure at work that makes you have not the way or the fast idea to answer to run up the trouble, In the dream, you'll have.

This is for a case that you worked harder or studied a lot.

In my case, sometimes, I dream that my real desire comes get true. Not to be alone again, have a lot of friends by my side, have a real work and profession, have my real independence and liberty. In my case, I dream about things that are extremely essentials for me.

I try to realize and figure out about the solution of my problems of the day, try to figure out some kind of perfect plan to be a better person, a good man and a wonderfull lover.

Sometimes I can’t, so I stay awake all night long, trying to sleep but I can't do that,stay trying to not thinking in things that could make me fell bad, talking to my friends(some those that stay awake too at the same time), stay listening music(my preference is blues), trying to write a lot...

This last thing is the one that I most do in my silent night, write. I like to write all my feelings, my broken hearts, my trials, my singularities, my... I can describe with all of my heart, some like I received in my life, and, some like I would preffer to receive, from the other people.

Dreams, what can I tell for all is that a dream is just dream, but I need to dream to be strong and to maintain my conscience, my soul and my heart.

What does Dreams can mean to you?
I don’t know, just realized that my Dreams one day must get to be true.

AGMA 05.09.09

Lack of You

"My thoughts
My will
My way
To feel

Since from the birth
Of knowlegde from nowhere
My pleasure ever was to be
From a love that want to see

Lack of you
Who gives lifetime to my mind
Lack of you
Who’s inside of my heart for ever

My thoughts walk by
My will won’t die
My way of looking for
To feel one love for

Lack of you
My thoughts
My will
To feel
Desire..."
(Trecho do Espetáculo Desejo)

AGMA 04.09.09

One day in my life

Since my first day in this kind of life, I’ve been looking for someone or something that could’ve given to me a grace to live as a man, as a person, as a creation of God.

I’ve tried to walk around near by the sight of my eyes but all the time I’d not a good skill
as a good searcher, so all this time in the past I’d redefined my way of thoughts and giving myself for the others.

One day in my life, I’d tried to keep myself closed for all, closed for my family, closed for my friends, closed for all. I’d realized that had done at first time with full succesfully, until the day I’ve met people who had given to me a new way of living.

A new kind of life that could care of my heart, my soul, my body and mainly my thoughts.

I’d fallen sometimes, I’d given up several times, I’ve just wandering for time by time without sight, all around the real world I’ve though known, and I’ve just fallen, as a weak man, as a simple human being, as a singular man.

Nowadays, I’ve been thinking a lot of my life, my way of life, my loved family, my beloved oldest and newest friends, and have thinking up about all this things, all this wandering paths, all this people who care of me, who give to me their attention, and I’ve done.

I've done?

I've done. One day in my life, asking for God answers of my prays, my asks, my fear and pain, my joy and tears... I’ve done.

Today, I have hurted someone that’s really important part of my life now, and I’ve interested that continue to be, if my acts were a fool acts, if my words were acts of a man stupid hurts, I’ve been thinking all the time of the One day in my life...

One day in my life that I’d say to the Lord that I’d been really happy at first time in my life.

I've Done.

One day in my life, I’ve finally the joy to taste the happiness...

Of a friend, of a woman, of a beauty's Creation of God.

AGMA 03.09.09

O Tempo Sempre tem o Poder de Mudar

Tempo, na sucessão de anos, dias, horas, momentos intermináveis de uma espera pelas decisões imprevisíveis do ser humano, na incerteza de sua vida, encontra-se suscetível a mudanças no mesmo.

Sempre, em todo o tempo, na verdade, não se fecha a essas mudanças, nem se limita ao simples, pois o sempre pode mudar um dia, pode ser capaz de se confrontar com novas emoções ou velhas emoções um dia já criadas na incerteza de um carinho ou atenção. Em todo caso essas mudanças podem acontecer, envolvendo a noção do presente, de passado e de um futuro que é incerto, e nunca se restringe a uma única idéia ou pensamento.

Tem-se a vontade muitas vezes solitária do tempo, do querer, do sentir, do saber... A infinita vontade de se completar como pessoa mesmo na solidão, às vezes compele a erros de julgamento, desencontro de vontades, distanciamento de situações, esquecimento de um conhecer.

Poder encontrar a felicidade ao encontrar alguém que em sua magnitude, na perfeição da Criação Divina, seja capaz de criar o bem, com sua presença, com sua inteligência, no mínimo de atenção, não se limita a questões filosóficas ou de caráter emocional capaz de causar mal ou sentimento adverso ao da alegria, ao de carinho e ao de sentir.

Mudar, tornar-se diferente do que era ou parecia ser, é uma necessidade, uma prioridade para o ser humano que deseja o bem através do respeito a outrem, ao querer estar próximo de alguém que precisa de tempo para viver, para sentir, para conhecer. Mudar é a possibilidade do sacrifício humano de se querer estar com sem estar, apenas no direito de se encontrar a felicidade no que lhe é permitido, no momento sem tempo ou prazo determinado para novas mudanças, não se limitando a uma só pessoa, mas no querer de duas ou mais. Mudar é gostar, pois assim dá-se o caráter de se estar em perfeita vontade de se deixar levar pelo tempo nesse conhecer e não crer apenas no ontem, nem no hoje, mas estar aberto ao amanhã.

Com fé em Deus, a vida se completa no seu tempo, momento e lugar.

O tempo sempre tem o poder de mudar.

AGMA 02.09.09